I needed support and........

I feel off again and it took me a few weeks to get back up. I stop coming to FitWit while I was dealing with my knee and foot issues(still having problem) and that was a BIG mistake! I realized that I needed to come and they would find modification for me and that still needed to get my workouts in. Easier said than done, but after a million threatening emails from Josh and Amy(just kidding). I got my butt back up and recommitted to finishing my journey. Josh sent me my winning FitWit essay and all I could do is cry!!! The people on the Marta bus thought that I was crazy or something. It it hit home and all of those emotions came back and I knew that I was the one to make the change. I came back to camp the next day(10/16) and it was ROUGH!!! We had a partner workout and Talley was a GREAT!!! I pushed hard and wanted to carry my load of the workout. I thought that I was going to die a few times, but I am still here! I left and felt EMPOWERED!!! Later that night, I wasn't able to move and still sore! I left like it was my very first week of camp.

I had my highest weight gain since I join FitWit his past week. I cried the entire way to pick up Diamond. I was mad and angry at myself for gaining and knowing that it takes a LONG time to get it back off. I am pushing hard and have developed a plan for this week and those unwanted pounds will be back off my 10/31! I had to give Ian a pep talk and told him that I need more support at home. My Sorority sister, Jennifer, joined WW with me and she lost over 6 pounds last week. She has been there to support me and gave me many kind words as we sat in WW on Sunday. We are going to push each other to make our goals and keep each other on track.

The excuses are OVER and I'm ready to WORK hard again! Sorry for letting my family down...

Jo

Its hard not to Judge!!!

Well, I joined Weight Watchers back and I realize that I was doing well on the program and I needed to start back. I attended my first meeting on Sunday and felt empowered to finish this journey. This lady sat beside me and looked perfect size and introduced herself. I was thinking to myself....WHY IS SHE HERE? She is fine and doesn't need to lose any weight. I did not realize that I was judging her until, I was sitting home on Wednesday with Ian's cousin and we were talking about weight loss. I record the Biggest Loser and generally watch it a day later. He mention that he HATES the SHOW and that these people need to get over it!!! I was offended! Keep in mind that he is 6'3 and weighs about 180 and can get anything that doesn't eat him first and not gain a pound. He has NEVER dealt with a weight issue. I realized that it HARD to feel the pain of someone if you have never thought about the issue that they are facing. I have a box of tissues, because I cry during every show, because I have been in many of the situations that the contestants face and they feel like they are at the end of the road. I realize that staying healthy doesn't come overnight and its something that you have to work at everyday. I realized that I judged someone and others might to the same about me. I realize that once I get to my goal, I am going to have to work twice as hard to keep it. We all should have goals that we strive to achieve and many of us can reach those goals w/o the help of others. I realize that this journey, I need help and that is why I am here at FitWit to help me!

I have been dealing with my knee and foot issue, but after my dr appt, I am going to remain positive and keep striving. There are going to be nights that I am going to push through the PAIN b/c I WANT IT MORE THAN ANYTHING!!!!! I am closer to my goal than 6 months ago, a month ago.....even a day ago. I have an image that I want and careless about what the scale says. I am LEARNING TO LOVE ME!!!! more and more each day! I have grown a lot but still there is more to do. I am EXCITED ALL OVER AGAIN!!!!

I will be back at CAMP on MONDAY and I have to make it these last 2 weeks. I have been walking at home on the nights that I have missed camp, but dealing with my knee and foot has been a minor set back.

Jo has not given up and WILL NOT GIVE UP!!!!

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!!!

JCE